Secret life (1)

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Here is another story-for you.SECRET LIFE-Chapter 1-The bright spotlight.
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When I was only 4 years old I wanted to be on stage, under the spotlight, to me it seemed so "cool" .All admire,watch and love you.So almost every eve,I danced,sang on my stage,which was my  biggest scaraf,music came from the old Radio,whom I also have at home right now.I sang songs in foreign  languages,i did not know the lyric,but who actually cared,I was happy and free.Luckily I had audience-parents and my beloved toys -Ernests, Nikkija, Louise and others.Besides the final concert,they also have the privileg to look the rehearsal.Nowadays looking back to the good times,seem so nostalgic.Singing it's not quite my dream yet,but while i am on a real stage I always want to sing something.Now my dream is to be a Cabare,Burlesque type of dancer.Did I mention that actually I am a little bit strange.Whell now,you know.Well here,where i live,we don't have a chance to dance before coming a prostitute.

Let's go back to reallity-and for me it's school and learning.You know,i promissed myself,better to have a preety certificate finnishing high school.I go to the 11th class.Anyway,i was a liar,but not like you may understand it.I was a liar to myself.I lied on everystep,everywhere,about everything.Tragic.Although my promise,i was very lazy,not so i did not do anything,I danced 4 times a week,wish i could do it more  and more,but don't have much place to do it.I could also say i have two personallities.Besides that i also  have two names-My  name is Amanda.Amanda Mia  Berg.I liked my name,it gived me little USAsh taste.Acctually i am pretty intresting people,but it is hard to show on others,i ussually just stay intresting  on the inside.
Ok,today was tuesday,so it started with lovely school,but at home I probbly was at 19.At school I done every school stuff,and at home i relax.Thats the reason why my parents think i am lazy,and on the end of semester they are supprised by my "good" grades.Today at school nothing happend,like basic day at school.I really wanted to become a lawyer, it seemed exciting and suitable for me, but not always, my grades were good enough.Everybody said that I'll be a teacher, but  then we will see where the road will lead us.
I came home after having listened to music, and entering through the door mom expects me with a smile, I threw an abomination. When there was a question: "Come ,dinner ready!?" Pretended to did not hear and fell into her room, what is it and why, maybe I just do not like smiling moms.Change clothes and lay down in my messed bed and dreamed about what could be done differently today, but no matter what had been, either to live on.Whatch TV, there's nightly routine as always went to my room , to do nothing. How I'll be a lawyer, if I have not opened any book yet everytime I asked myself this question, but i never-oppend a book .Wednesdays I did not like, the lessons wher terribly boring and teacher speaked so monotonoust and   lessons of mathematics, history and politics..ehhh.Bet I really liked after wednesday feeling, because then there remained only two days and two in front of a wonderful vacation, which I certainly spend-doing  nothing. Funny.
Wednesday
- "Hey, you couldn't belive what happend in yesterday rehearsal!" Said Anna.
Anna was my girlfriend, probably, I do not have a lot of friends. Honestly, I think I have no friends. I am a one-aloner. Probably because it's beause i so didn't expect my little brother or sister, and there is also really lucky situation with cousins , two, if I'm not mistaken, and we meet every 5 years.Nice.Mostly, it was like that:
-hey
-hey
-How are you?
-Good , you?
-Fine, What you do?
-Nothing, Learning 11th class,you?
-Nothing, Working and learning at university.
-Cool
-Cool.
 And goodbye , honey, such talks as this,gave me so much hate.If you do not want to be friends with me-pleas,be my guest.OK- Anna, Anna was such a stranger,like me, she played first violin orchestra both literally as well as accused.She was like the "princes of not UK", but not in bad way .She was also very smart, she had a  spine, witty jokes, and the appearance was also ok.Bet either beauty as Mary she deffinatly was not.So do I,Idid not examine myself very low and not high.Mary was just wow, not only with good skin, wonderful cheek bones, big brown eyes, long, slender legs, and also bushy boobs.We already did not have some grand beauty at class, but we all were like ants down there, because all in one had looked in Mary.(boys).Wonderful, 14 people from my class fall away .Then there is  Mary ,Santa (like Santa Claus) and Agnes.Squad number.1.Then so-called nerdy one's-Lena,Sarah and Andrew forefront, Sarah and Andrew were really normal, funny and nice people, but Lena was affull.Guuurl, you immediately at the door knocking majority and you still really do not know what  deo is, and not talking about your style and clothing. The whole of its borders, but, well, seriously, your general look every day complet nonsens .Of course if it is comfortable,it is not a problem, but it would be better listened to other people.Well, then there is still always sick  Nick,Cindiy who come to school in  best way 14 days, this being a maximum for semester.
Well and where then the smarty pants Loret and Lilita. "Double L, representing a double strength and double wisdom"
I heard as Loret complained Lilita one day at girls' toilet.
-You Realize in last math class tests I got only 93% what I do for my higher education institutions, such looser they don't need.
Oh, or serious, and even then I smiled wide at my 75%, Loreta also wants to become a Lawyer.Nice ,nice.
Then still remains-me, Anna, Vita and Julie.I am friends with complete all, all went out, shopping, we with Anna was a little strenghter friendship than with Vita and Julie,and also Vita and  Julie was better friends,well, but I have never seen when Anna,Vita or Julie,are three together.Four, yes, but a three, don't think so.

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